Three weeks ago,
Wendi forwarded me a listing for a job that, on the surface, seemed like a dream come true. It was a position for a
copyeditor/writer at an independent publishing house here in Austin. I have wanted to work at a publishing house for, like, forever.
I immediately spit polished my resume and picked a writing sample and sent them off with my fingers crossed. A week later, when I still
hadn't heard back, I sent an e-mail to confirm that they had received my application. I got an almost immediate response with an editing test attached.
In the meantime, my neighbor had done some research on the company and told me that it was a vanity press shop and warned me away. While there are some excellent writers who go the vanity press route, the majority of the clients are those who have money to spend and the
delusion belief that they have penned the next great American novel/mystery/biography/memoir/Oprah's pick.
But I plugged along, because I figured being an editor at a vanity press would still be good job experience. If I could manage
delusional writers there, I could handle anything anyone threw at me.
But then I looked at the writing sample. It was AWFUL. My third-grade daughter writes better than whoever put this piece together. If it was pulled from the text of an actual manuscript and an example of what I would be doing in this job, I had vastly underestimated what the job entailed.
The only thing that would have salvaged the piece would have been to delete it and start from scratch, but I knew that wasn't what they were looking for. So I
focused on fixing the
punctuation, grammar, and spelling errors and then offered some suggestions for rewriting in a few places. I sent it off and hoped for the best.
Yesterday I received an e-mail thanking me for my application and telling me that they had received applications from many qualified applicants and that the job had been filled.
I have mixed emotions about this. On the one hand, I'm not sure I wanted a job holding the hands of writers who produced
dreck like the writing sample I received. And I really have no idea how I thought I would manage a full-time job at this point in my life. Finding day care for Campbell and Elizabeth would probably have eaten up every bit of my salary. Plus, after seven years of working from home, setting my own hours and sitting at the computer in my
jammies, I don't know how I would handle normal 9-5 hours.
On the other hand, my professional ego is a bit bruised. If I may toot my own horn, I'm a damn good
copyeditor. What's more, I enjoy doing it. I love catching errors in punctuation and grammar. I have a whole shelf of
copyediting, grammar and style books. I have my own copy of the
Chicago Manual of Style. I'm also a better-than-average writer. If I'm not good enough for this job, then who is?
So here I am, licking my wounds and continuing on with the freelance work I have, grateful to at least have a job. But rejection sucks.