Last week I went to the gym with the goal of running 12 miles. I had my iPhone loaded with a movie - "Babies" is beyond cute, and no one gets eaten! - and lots of podcasts. I even got set up on a treadmill in front of a TV tuned to a good channel. I did really well through 9 miles, and then I got hit with horrible stomach cramps. If I had been running outside, I would have had to walk it out and still finish the distance. But at mile 10.5, I gave up both physically and mentally.
When I talk to running friends about my concerns, they remind me that I still have time and say that I shouldn't get anxious about it. They also remind me that given my time constraints, I'm actually doing well to run as much as I am.
But it still doesn't help.
I really, really need the weather to turn so that I can get back to running outside and ramp up my mileage.
This morning I intended to run outside, but when I walked out and felt the temperature - 82 degrees at 5:30 - and the humidity, I grabbed my keys and headed to the gym. In an effort to keep myself amused, I ran 20 minutes of a preprogrammed hill routine and then 20 minutes of race pace, for a total of 4.5 miles. I definitely felt the workout, but it just wasn't the same as running the Windsor Loop with friends.
I know that if I can just get through this low point, I'll be fine. So I'm plugging along, hoping for cooler weather.